Wednesday, October 7, 2009 10:35:00 PM
Happy Birthday Sott! ❤

I am back here blogging.

Wellwell, knowing that yesterday selection names will be out after friendly against Zenith. to be truth, yes I was kinda nervous, I mean, at least I am normal feeling that way. Played only 1/4 of C, and rest throughout the game. Coach Jo, Connie and JJ said that I was too tensed, maybe I am, I don't know. Just feeling nervous as I mentioned earlier.

Before names out, as expected won't be in the Top 14. A glance of all the player, you can easily picked the best 14 in NYP, including the 6nationals! Left with 8places, it's not easy I know. What else you expect? -.-" C'mon, we are just wasting our effort going on for umpteen training, having physical and courtwork done every week. When the nationals just have to appear once, or maybe not at all, and they can simply play for school. Oh how ridiculous can! I am not being sarcastic, it's true what okay.
True that we no matter how hard we fight, no matter how much we sprint to build up our fitness level, no matter how many billionxzxzxzxzx shots shooters went early to put in, no matter what a beautiful perfect attendance(for some, I know I am not cause of attachments), no matter how good we have improved, no matter no much effort we have put in, the answer would be : "Sorry girls, you are NOT in the school team." Awww, how sad? Seriously, It's like wtf okay!
Tell me how you guys would feel can? Everyone fought hard, everyone wanna play for school, who doesn't wants to play for school? Tell me, who doesn't want? Who wouldn't want to win something for school, make school proud? Each and everyone of us, fought hard hoping we can be in the Top 14. But end up we didn't manage to. Sighed. I gave up this year, gave up. Pol-Ite names are out. Congrats to the Top 14, fight hard okay! Jiayou and play for Champ as this is your aim, strive for it! Oh ya, 5 year1(s) are selected, 4 Defender 1 Shooter. Okay, 1 Defender is being replaced to play MidFielder, oh how great right :)

Likewise, I am not fighting for IVP anymore, when you can't even get in for Pol-Ite, stop dreaming about IVP, useless Alice! Play somewhere else or stop playing Netball okay :D I gave up this year Netballing, I gave up my space in NYP this year, I gave up. I am effing disappointed. I am tired of fighting already. I am not worth fighting. Face the reality I am not good enough.

I just wanna play Year End League for Zenith junior team, Yes I wants! I wanna play with Low WeiSi Ong MinJi EderlynChan ReginaYeo EthelCheng KarenKang Elizabeth Stephanie Vincci! Yes, I wanna play with you guys nownownow! *KS you saw this?* Hahahahahah.

But sadly, none of us chosen, Me Faizah and Jessica. Well, we expected the outcome okay before the name was being announce. You can simply count out who is in who is out okay. Predictable! So yes, we are not in :) I don't know are they sad, but more or less they sure will feel sad okay. We are human okay. And yes, I am disappointed and I am sad, if I were to say I am not, I am just saying white lies. I know I fought hard yesterday, I know I tried my best yesterday, I am not in, nothing I can do to. I wasn't strong enough to be in the team, I just have to accpet the fact, accept it silently :) Wanting so much to play, but still it wasn't my luck :) Well, forget it. I felt better after crying, now I am fine okay :) No point dwelling over it, because I know it's uselss, I am silly to even teared for this fucking Selection, fucking stupid! Stupid, wake up your senses Alice! :D Dumbdumb was right, I should have listen to her earlier. I just don't wants you guys to worry, that's all.

However, I felt sad for Huiyu, seriously, I do. I can see the effort she's putting in, she's a good player, she's a good shooter lah. She even make up for trainings even after her attachment, and now she's not in, sighed! :( She's the one who really feels sad, no one can feels sad much more than her okay! Stay strong and come back for IVP Huiyu! :)

Goodnights reader!

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