Friday, January 22, 2010 2:48:00 AM
back home after a busy morning & afternoon.
didn't went to school as I have got appointment with TTSH regarding the knee so yeapp.
& morning went down to store to help them take photo, photographer me, don't play play :D
hahaha, breakfast after that then stay there chat with aunty and back to school work (:
smart me brought books to read read, hahah! :D :D

& anyway, met up with Joyce soon around 1pm over at Somerset (:
had lunch then walk around the new shopping mall, hahah! :D :D
very biggg lah, then off to Ion to look at things and went to Crumpler.
Sott wanna find her friend but I also don't know why she don't wanna call, haha, weird she D:
then down to Novena, sat at BK again we eat onion ringggg hahah! kept eating fat die me! -.-"
hhmm then meet up with KS then off to appointment.

we waited for about 2hours to reach my turn, wtf right, damn tulannn!
so longgg can, angryyyy! it's a appointment yet wait for so long -.-" = no link at all!
sighedddd and result turn out to be bad, really bad ): ):

I know I needs to go for op, I know I have to go for op, I know I must go for op!
but I don't wish to have any op please, reallyyyyy!
who loves op? tell me, who loves em'? fucked!
I DONT WANNA GO FOR OP, I AM STUBBORN I KNOW )':
when Dr. said that op is needed mind went blank, idk what to do next, really ):
what's next? tell me what's next.
text Jacq Kesh Rina Coach Jo after the result. Yet to tell those who are asking and those who they needs to be informed D:
don't wish to let them starts getting worried, hold on, gimme time D:

blame myself for not having a proper landing during training.
blame myself for not being careful and so careless.
blame myeslf for dragging too long to asked for a Referral.
blame myself for not taking care after incident happen.
whatever happen had happen, blame myself so much!
why has it gotta happen now and not later? FML please, I hate it so much now.

blame the Dr. totally at TTSH that I would be fine after few weeks and resting will cure.
blame the Dr. that the swelling is nothing, and I cannot straighten my knee is NORMAL.
blame the Dr. at AMK polyclinic that he told me it's just a normal muscle strain/sprain.
blame the Dr. say it's normal to have the pain.
yes, the ACL is not totally proven but what's now? FUCK! NBCB.
i've no mood & i am angry because all the Dr. kept telling me my knee is fine, knn! -.-"

thanks the Dr. at HG poly for giving me the Referral though (:

shall have positive mind set then, to keep myself positive.
tell myself there's no ACL tear, please remind me everyday! .____.

Sigheddddd, 101 worries.
mood totally gone after that.

Thanks Joyce & KS for the accompanied today! :D