Sighs.

I felt guilty, I really do! :(

I'm sorry!

Sorry for not answering your call! :(

I did wanna talk to you, I do miss you but ...

Whenever I don't get your text reply, your call I am worried, I don't know why!

Sighs, it's only one day I didn't answer your call and ...

I know you're lazy to reply I understand dear :)

Well, I am really sorry.

I sincerely apologized dearest!

:'(

This is my 300th post! :D Long post. Read or Leave, you choose! ;)

I'm so bored! Really! ): ): Every day staying at home doing nothing is killing me. Arghhh, seriously man. I can't wait to remove the knee brace & crutches. Pffffft. And, I am those that cannot stay home one, like hyper one no matter what gotta go out. But, in this situation, go out also trouble some, walk awhile tired ler due to crutches, don't know how also luh! -.-" Doctor still say cannot walk too much, what also cannot do omfg, going crazy. I am not even halfway there, it's only the 2nd week, I have 4 more weeks = 1 month to go! Time please go faster can? ):

Tuesday, went to see Doctor. Kaihui came to fetch me. She accompany me, then after that I accompany her to see gynecology in the evening. We had a lot of fun man, laughter joke and even angry. She's pregnant and nobody gave up seats to her in the MRT la! -.-" Seriously, I am on crutches no seat never mind, but she's pregnant okay! Speechless sia with all these Singaporeans on earth. Really don't understand them, one day when you are pregnant and have no people give up to you, this is call RETRIBUTION! D: They still can even run in front of us to have the fucking seat, nbcb, if I am not partially cripple I would have scold these people. Pissed off.

Waited for about an hour then my turn, aiyo so long one. Luckily, got nice show for us to watch and newspaper to see! Lol. And, the nurse came out to call me, she called " Mdm Alice Ng", and Kaihui laughed so loud la! MDM! ._. Lol, and the nurse apologized say she didn't saw the age. So yea, saw the pictures of the repairment I did to my knee. Kind of gross la huh :/ And, doctor removed the bandaged and see if it's time to remove the stitches.

Oh my, I saw the stitches now clearer ): It's fucking fucking fucking ugly. If I were to post here, you all may just go to the top right hand corner of the window and close it ): ): ): Sighed, and I have 4 scar now, so what it's on my leg? Fuck that la, UGLY. Soon, went over for stitch removal at the other room. Asked the nurse is it painful, she say No. Of course la, if yes then how will we allow her to remove for us right. The first one was okay, but slowly the rest was knnbccb. Seriously very painful loh, held my tears back and tahan. Argh, she spray something on it and i just went "nb, pain!!!" After that relieved, cause almost done. Nurse hit my leg and say I naughty girl, caused I scold vulgarities lol. Pain what please! -.-" I can still see some of my raw meat man, sounds disgusting shall stop. Total of 10 stitches, with 4 scars ): ): Cheer me up man!

This wasn't the main issue actually. I was very concerned about Doctor's word that day. He was saying 3 months I cannot do squatting. And, also ask me don't worry about the ACL repairment, it will be heal 100% caused have took the tendon from the thighs to attached it. BUT, as for the meniscus *he shook his head* Sighs ): He was also shocked when he did the meniscus repairment he said, because it is more than what he is doing. Both inner & outer, but MRI shows only inner part tore. And, he trimmed it therefore, my both meniscus is now smaller than a normal human one. Also, the healing rate for meniscus is only 70-80%, it won't fully heal. He add on, I gotta listen to their instruction and better not do anything physical now. But he did say, after that gotta be careful cause it will never be fully heal ): And, it's both side, not one side. He may not know what will happen if I didn't look after.

This eventually alert me. I was afraid, really I was ): I was thinking going back to Zenith to play on. But after hearing the Doctor's words, I don't even dare to think about it anymore. Just one more time if I were to hurt myself, I may go back to the surgery room again, and maybe not just 10stitches now. It may hurt me more, or I may even have to remove my whole meniscus and replaced it with a corpse one, this may be possible too. Sighs. Pei Ru did asked me too have I ever thought of going back, this is what I told her too. She asked me not to think so much and recover first. True. But still, I don't know. I miss playing every kind of sports, running and etc but ... Let nature takes it's course than. I really got no idea now. Blanked.

Maybe I should just listen to guinea pig. Stop playing netball to prevent myself from injuries. Maybe she's right (?) Sighs. Say till her, today it's the 19th day I last saw her ):

Well, anyway. In the later part of the day. Went Hougang Mall had lunch collect letter & off to Compass Point to see gynea. Approaching the MRT station, some HIHS students, did some pranked and it hit me & Kaihui. After that, they just walked off. I was fucking angry since morning when people don't gave up seat and now students are just pretending nothing happen and wanna walk away when they hit us. They know and they don't apologize for their wrong doings. What's wrong with the earth seriously? I was so angry that I shouted at them, make them apologized to us! Some of the guys still act big shot. Good, wait and see. Nb, don't think I am partially cripple I don't dare to hit you or scold you. My leg may be weak, but don't try my hands! Think cripple & pregnant lady good to bully? Don't try me. Cb, I won't let you off!

Saw the scanning with Kaihui in Doctor's room, so cute la. Saw the head stomach heartbeat. 1.5kg leh ;) Like, so cool loh! Heh. 7months. 2more months to gave birth, excitedddddd! :D

After that met up with Joyce Li Jiao & Esther for Steamboat at the usual place :) Awesome, the meet up was cool. After so long I am seeing them, and we did have many things to talk about. As usual, our common topics. Dinner and home.

Had a great day! :D Good night. It's 0329 now. Xoxo.

Today, is the 16th day. And, it will sure keep counting on until I personally step out of the house to meet you. Cause you are busy, I understand :)

It's MONDAY today. Bored bored bored. Monday blues (?) Hate weekday ever since I am partially cripple. Stupid crutches. Stupid surgery. Stupid knee. Stupid wound. Made me suffer so much, horrible horrible. Tomorrow yet another appointment with the doctor. Shall wait for what doctor say about my condition, I pray a good one! *Oo mi tuo fou*

May is here very soon. Just another 4 more days. Time really passes very fast huh.

I've got dearest sister visit just now! Lina & Rina, they brought Qin Yuan along too :) Thanks! And, also the fruits. I will get well soon okay! Heh.

the top picture is for you, I seriously miss you. It's totally your fault. SERIOUSLY i add want lah obviously! :D Who ask you didn't visit me ): Causes me to miss you truckloads x1000000! (L)

anyway, had physio yesterday, it was a pretty short one. cause she only taught me how to do exercise at home and stuff. so yeah, after that back to NYP to do follow up on document. And, met Brenda for lunch at Koufu! :D Haha, she's funny. Been long since I last saw her too. So, she me and sister had a good chat. Awesome! Shall meet up with the rest real soon? I really miss everyone that I've not seen for a very long time.

tomorrow's Star Award i am so excited about it. Once a year okay, must watch one! Haha. I think I am on the track of recovering very well. Strength strength strength. All I need is to do strengthening and exercise to gain back what I have lost during surgery. Jiayou Alice! :D :D

At brother's house now :)

Zenithians is having their training camp now leh. Sianxzx. I miss training. But, at the same time I think I won't be going back already. I don't know why. I do loves sports but I am afraid. Is this what everyones say; Phobia? Sighed. I am just afraid I will injured myself once again. I don't wanna go thru' anymore surgery. This will be the first and the last time ): But, I am definitely not going back to NYP netball! It don't worth my time there, seriously. Why stay when you are not being recognize right? Maybe I am wrong luh, I am nothing to NYP netball, they're far too much better than me (: Positive vibeeeee, kns! Lol.

Oh yea. I had a 2min chat with guinea pig last night at 0007 (: Surprised that she called actually, cause expect her to be sleeping soundly cause it's pretty late ler. As usual, she awake very early in the morning and she reaches home late at night, and the very next day have to wake up early for work. Sighed ): Hhmm, private number either her or li jiao de (: So yea was her. Happy to talk to her somehow. Today she's having class. Thursday (tomorrow) to Saturday she'll be out for holiday! Gonna miss her! ): Take care uhhhhh guinea pig!

It's Wednesday today! 2 more day to weekend. Can't wait for weekend seriously. Friday I am seeing the physio again. Hope to have some recovery status from the physio. I am getting bored and tired using crutches. I need to get free from crutches. Really!

Every night, 9pm A New Beginning is getting exciting. Nice siol. Love watching Chinese drama, really ;) The story is perfect nice. Though people may work for the funeral services, but what's wrong uh? It's still a job what. We ought to respect them, not everyone is willing to work okay!

Everyone will be going for their attachment, and me gonna rot at home! Wtffffff hate it ):

I shall keep doing exercise and faster recover then do whatever I can, seriously I need to have some determination. I am serious okay. Not kidding anymore. To at least be able to walk properly without crutches but with knee brace for 6 week is better.

It's the 8th day I am not seeing guinea pig ): It sounds very short luh but still I miss her okay! At least I saw the rest when I am admitted in hospital the other day. Some mummy and girlf the following day too.

So ya, I know I won't be seeing her for the next few days too. Just spoke to her over the phone, she said she'll be busy for the next whole week. Asked me to search for accompany. Cause, she gonna work tomorrow and the day after. And, going for holiday on Wednesday to Friday. So long ): ): Wondering when will I be able to meet her, seriously. Sighed. Though talking to her everyday brighten my day, still miss her blur face, heh (: Someone, who I can be able to talk to! I miss you, you know?! ): Hugs! ^^

Oh yes. Star Awards just now was very horrible terrible vegetable! !@#$% Really man, so bored so lame one wah lau ehh! Say liao make me angry only.The whole 3hours show, I think only 30mins was enjoyable lor please, the rest are total crap! -.-" Waste my time only.

Recover soon Alice! Praying for myself every single day! (:

Believe that I will recover very soon. God, grant my wish will you? (:

i am so bored at home ): there's nothing i can do but to sleep sleep sleep. play lappy also bored because i cannot sit well, my butt hurts due to the knee brace ): sighed! i don't know what to do. it seems so hard to cope by myself at home alone. it's never easy, never easy to be with crutches. never easy to handle when you feels handicapped. it's so hard, everything so hard to be.

Thanks everyone for the well wishes and visit me yesterday. Silly girlf, cried when I was crying badly last night, she was heartache I am suffering in pain ): So sad to see her cry too. Didn't wanna worried them de. Hais. Mummy Babe & Coach Jo accompanied me throughout before I enter the op room. Thanks, I love them so much luhhhh! :D

Thanks everyone, I will be fine and fight thru' this tough season and will be back soon okay.

Dearest is sick too ): ): Take care dear!

Oh dear. I just got home from store. It's 0216 now, and i am working later at 0700, it's only about 5hours left. And, I will be back to MDS again ): ): Really very tiring. It's not because of the work actually, it's because I think we gonna down crew again tomorrow ): And again, we will run like a cow again ): wthhhhh isn't it? Just pray then, that's all. Hope I won't look like a ZOMBIE tomorrow, lol.

Before work start, I am actually damn pissed luh seriously. Nb. Shan't talk about it luh. Gotta thanks xiaopanqq for accompanying me this afternoon luh! ;)

& i think dearest is falling sick ): she looks so sick (sniffing & coughing), sighed ): don't know what she thinking also luh, argh! hope she get well soon anyway!

I AM FINALLY DONE WITH ATTACHMENT! HAPPYYYY! ;)

Well well, tomorrow back to McDonald's ;) Haha, cool or what. It's my 23rd day non-stop working day since 19th March till now. Every day work. Weekday attachment Weekend Mac. Omfg, this is the first time man. I really tired myself out, I swear I do, I can feels the tiredness despite continue working. Poor knee gotta suffer with me )':

Actually, I miss guinea pig :(

Anyway, 1 more week to school reopen. I shall enjoy myself much before school mundane schedule appears in front of me luh. PLAY HARD NOW! ;) Idk how leh seriously. I don't know who should I shared these information with, seriously Idk. Sighed, tell who also wrong luh. And, afraid one of them might just spilled the beans out, seriously. Still deciding, next month what should I do to make it better (?) Whatever it is, shall see how luh.

4 more days to meet the sports surgeon! Hurry tell me what I needs to do! D: Have not been sleeping well these day, can't sleep ): Cause of knee fuckkkk.

It's 2351 now, li jiao called suddenly asked me wanna drink coffee not -.-" Is cause ask me meet her, so i am heading out now byebye! :D

I am almost done with school attachment! :D LAST DAY TOMORROW, finally babyyyyy! Hang in there a lil' more, another 7hours(minus an hour break) tomorrow & i am free from waking up early during weekday! Delighted.

Last 3 days left in ward 5c was alright ;) Try to do many things and play with the patient before I left. It's always sad to leave this is for sure luh, but happy too cause attachment is over. I so gonna miss the nanny and ahpeh luh. The cute ones especially bed 111, who discharged before I reached that day. And, the idiot boom boom, though he always dirty minded luh but still he forever make us laugh non-stop ;) Haha.

My cubicle bed 84 85 87 & 88 ;) They are the one who stayed longest with me, for 3 weeks except for 87 just for a week and she discharged ;) she very cute will wanna hold your hand bring towards her body. Bed 84 aka tau pok aunty, Rachelle and I knows why! Lol, she is funny with her silly innocent smile -.-" You will never wanna know her story from me, she's a lil' disgusting sometimes but most of the time she sleep well ;) Bed 85 aka miss piggy, this isn't what we gave her, is the nurses named her and we followed ;) Poor her stay for very long ler, condition now still not well ): Get well soon! Bed 88 aka lady gaga popo, haha! She love lady gaga songs okay! Lol, she superb cute, the first day I met her she was sick terribly, but now she's totally different. She's prettier already if you girls have met her before. She'll be discharged tomorrow if i am not wrong ;) & all of their maid very good to me too! Lol, miss them much.

Same to the nurses there, and one of the HSA aunty. Karpi, her name. Something like that, she dote me a lot luh, treat me damn well! Thanks! :D Last but not least, our Clinical Instructor, Maggie! ;) Thanks for the patience with us and everything. We will miss you eh! ;)

That means, school is gonna start soon ): And, here comes the VERY STRESSFUL year. Yes, everyone said that year 2 is the year we really need to study and all. If we can pass Year 2, then Year 3 will be playing for us ler. Cause, it's touching up our skills and etc.. That's why. So yea, study hard ALICE stop playing luh huh -.-" Lol, I will try though. Lol.

KNEEEEEEEEEEE HURTS )':

Update tomorrow. Sleep tonight. It hasn't been a fruitful day these weekend ): Sighed. Oh well, everyone's patient has a limit baby. Don't try!

it's gonna be long that i will be seeing my cliques again.

especially guinea pig! awww.. ^^

until about almost 2pm, hand over to ifah and went for my break. settled all my pending order on screean and hand over. woah, finally see the screen RIDER OUT felt so accomplished :) totally man, stocked up and went for break. thanks MIKE for the nasi lemak from hougang there. Sahim say nice so ya bought and try, spicy siol lol.

punched back for break, help li jiao count stock arranged chiller then punched out liao, lol. fast sia, cause i i went late for break mah that's why -.-" after work, slack slack talk to them all then home. it had been a long day today :/

knee fucking killing me the whole noon ): it's really painful now and i've no idea what i should do and what's next? :O i have the urge to see the sports surgeon and discussed what are the next step i need to do. i just don't wanna feel pain all the time la ):

& tomorrow is GOOD FRIDAY! Which means, it's a Public Holiday and I am working for double pay! Cool cool :) Haha. Well, 4week of attachment today, pretty cool and fun cause all morning shift only today is afternoon shift :) Morning time passes very fast and many many things happened too! :D Had light lunch with Rachelle today. New admission new patient.

Did I tell you all? My cubicle is a MAID'S HOTEL! Lol, I have got 6 patient, and 4 with maids. Therefore, their maid will look after them, so I only got 2 left. Lol, and my Bed 84 is a superb duper cute one please :D Haha, she will keep sleeping then you talk to her, she will kp kp one ask you don't disturb all la. Lol. And Bed 86 titi change one loh, discharged admit discharged admit. Lol. Still, enjoyed myself today. With the maid as well, they are superb funny people :)

Last week, I will only have 3 days ): Cause i got last 2 days of SHS, sad right? Aww.. Will miss attachment anyway, attachment are fun also la. Though I don't have own classmate, but sometimes it's good? Independent abit? HAHA, but I got Rachelle to be with me. Joke laugh and all! Nevertheless man, seriously! Hugs! ^^ And, break time, Satria forever making us laugh for the full 1hour, really tired of laughing at his not so lame joke! Lol.

Looking forward, and better learn more things too! Jiayou! :D