Been long since I last play netball on court.

Been long since I have all the fitness training, ball training, drills training, etc..

Been long since I run for a full 15minsx4quarters game.

Been long since I stepped into the Center circle.

Been long since I last cheer for a team, *missing Zenith*.

Been long since I last watch a netball games.

Been long since I visit the netball courts, School/TP.

Been long since I last make my way to Kallang Netball Center.

Been long since I meet up with all the netball mates, catching up with them, etc..

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I miss playing netball.

I miss playing Street netball.

I miss participating in those event, Netballuxion, Leagues, etc..

I miss training. I miss doing ball drills.

I miss having the physical training.

I miss participating in all the netball event being organized.

I miss playing Center, running all over the place.

I miss shooting from the top of the Semi-D, challenging with Eder, KS & Zelin.

I miss all these, I miss training.

BOUNCE PASS. SHOULDER PASS. STRAIGHT PASS. CHEST PASS. LOOP PASS.

oh well. everything happens for a reason, that is why now i am stuck here doing noting but eating everywhere. didn't even look into how i am helping myself to get my knee get well. but just complaining and nagging i misses netball. bullshitting Alice. most of the time i sees no point getting well, because i am torturing knee very badly i guess. sighs.

BUT I DO MISS ALL THE RUNNING! :(

BEEN VERY LONG MY INJURY TILL NOW!

02 December 2009 was the day I got this fucking knee injury :(

i will never forget this particular day.

WHERE. WHEN. WHY. HOW. WHO. i remember every single thing.

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14 April 2010 operation done. the day when i supposed to go Msia with Diana and Esther ended up I am in the Operation room getting my knee fixed.

4-5 hours in the operation room.

and there goes,

Suffering for about 1.5months with both cutches and,

about 0.5month with one crutches and,

total about 3months with the knee brace.

Been thru' all these stages was really not easy. Felt really handicapped for the very first moment when I am out of the Operation Room. I cried and cried. Waking up every hour vomiting. Terrible feeling. Asking for help even with the minimal pain i am having. Asking for jabs to numb all my pain instead of medication syrup/tablet afraid i might vomit = no effect.

Back home. I need help for everything :

Getting up the bus/cab. Shower. Lifting up my knee to put the ice pack. Helping me to get food and etc.. Many many more.

Certainly know it feels. And, i DISLIKE it alot.

words to describe my feeling was : HOPELESS HORRIBLE USELESS.

But I really thanks those who showered me with care and concern. Being there for me when i needed someone, and letting me be strong once again. Those who visited me.

In my next post, I will thank all this people :)

No matter how hard life would be, life moves on........

Isn't it? :)