what about the day after tomorrow, and forever? will you baby? :'(

i've lost you once again, first was you fainted at home when mum gave you eat some pills. i was so afraid that i will lose you but you get back to me only after days, 3-5 days? sighs.

today, i lose you again.

how many days will i not hear from you? 10? 20? i'm sorry!

it's my bad, really my bad of losing you this time.

i'm at fault, i were to blame when things happen this time.

blame it on me, will you? let me explain, will you? :(

baby, i need you to reply my call/sms can. i really hope you are safe and sound outside because i really have no idea where you are, even your Godmother!

i'm afraid you just fainted outside on the road, while crying so hard. are you baby?

can you actually hear me talking to you, calling for you to come to me? :'(

what i can do is only wait and hope that you'll return to me.

there's nothing i can do.

i miss you. i really do. please be alright, if not i not gonna forgive myself.

i'm really sorry for everything!

I LOVE YOU BABY! :'(

CAN YOU HEAR ME?

我一点都不开心。

Really, how many ups and downs must one encountered then we were realized what 'LIFE' really is? Sighs.

I've never expect these to happen in my dearest sister life. Sighs. I've always wants her to lead a happy life, but looks like it's difficult now.

Okay, I'm finally blogingggggg already.

exactly 1 more months to my birthdayyyyyyy! HAHAHAHA! I'm not gonna have fun because as usual, I don't intend to celebrate and I don't expect any gifts too, cause I wrote on Twitter if you wanna get me something, "Get me a pair of good leg!" (:

Oh well, anyway I failed my FTT on Friday evening ): Sianxz bodoh, have to go rebook it and retake it all over again. Got 42/50 only cannot have more than 5 wrongs la! Sighsss. After that went to Kbox with the cliques over at amk. And meet up with my little girl! (:

I'm so angry that I wanna rantttttttttttttt about my work! >.<

Damn pissed off at work. Someone who always thinks highly on herself today shows her attitude. Not once not twice, always! -.-" If you aren't happy about me asking you to do any station, then say don't have to slam stuffs okay BITCH -.- Wait till you got certified, see if you ask crew to do things they will listen to you not first? Every time you are so uncooperative, if you dislike me CAN SAY, don't pretend as though you and me are so close okay?

We promoted CL together and I promoted FM earlier than you and you are not happy! C'mon la, what's with all this unhappiness? -.- Ayu promoted to CL you also unhappy, there is really something wrong with you, not us okay! -.-"

When I was a trainee like you, I don't even ask for more. I don't even shows attitude to my senior manager. I don't even fight back for anything they say. I listen to what they wants me to do. Irregardless of stations or not, I don't care I do, because I'm okay with it. But you, promoted already YOU DON'T WANNA DO STATIONS AT ALL! -.- Don't you know you have to verified stations first? Don't you know still under training? I didn't say I'm perfect, but at least I respect all of my managers who are senior than me. Even though, sometimes I say them, but it's all about work stuff. Work is work, play is play, if you really cannot take in the feedback, then I'm sorry, I won't say anymore okay. I will shut up and you do whatever you wants.

If I knows it's wrong and I tell you it's because I want you to learn, don't want you to get wrong. But your thinking is that, you thinks we doesn't respect you as a manager. If I wouldn't care, I will not even tell you what's right what's wrong already, let you wrong and get scolded by other manager. If you thinks that we are all so nasty, then sorry we really need to back-off from you career area. We wished you all the best though!

You claims we don't respect you as a manager, ask yourself, you respect us in the first place? Even you are showing attitude to your 1st Asst and 2nd Asst, don't say me. When you are only a trainee now. Think about your action before you speaks.

C'mon la, I just finish the pathway you are walking now, I was like you, do every single station to verified them one by one, one day each, not anything more than that. But you, rushed thru' 4/5 stations one day at a times, why are you rushing yourself? Rush yourself then you ownself feels stress, who the fuck is pushing you? NOBODY IS YOURSELF -.-"

Maybe service line, is not a good choice for you. Nevertheless, I wished you all the best!

I'M FUCKING DRAINED OUT FROM ATTACHMENT! :(

PLEASE SAVE ME SOMEONE, SAVE ME PLEASE. URGE OF DROPPING OUT AGAIN!

JUST TWO MORE DAYS ALICE, ENDURE!

MISS MY SWEETIE PIE! :(

I WANNA HAVE ALL THESE OKKKKK.

& JUST FOR YOU! ^^

loves holding your hand when our long walks, can we do that again?

wanna kiss your forehead before I goes to sleep every night.

when you're upset I will hold you tight and never let you go baby!

wanna hear you sing to me to bed :)

pick me up from work someday sometimes, will you?

I will write more notes to you often, because I knows you will read em' before bed.

don't always cut your hair because i always prefer your old hair baby.

just wanna fall asleep in your arms.

if you were to be mad, I'M JUST GONNA KISS YOU DON'T LET YOU TALK hehe :P

one day I'll piggy back you ok? :D

I wanna have a long walk on the beach with you baby!

surprise me, surprise you?

just so you know, I LOVE YOU DEARRRRR! ^^

I want my everyday to end like this! D:

I'm awake for my last PM shift of my 2nd week posting, 2 more week to go, I'm done with it. It's midway thru' already ;) Can't wait for it to end seriously.

Work been okay these day, not really good not really bad uh. Just being tired I guessed, everyday work like a motherfucker in ward already and getting tired over mcd, this is horrible life of mine! :( if only I was a billionaires, I would've shaking legs at home, and rest probably a couple of months. Meh, okay! I'm thinking way too much okay!

Met my small girl yesterday, and super early okay! Like 0600 woke up already, when having my PM shift, but what to do, wanna see her little cute face ^^ Bloody kuku she, go and cut her hair until not nice ler lohhhhh, hate the fact she loves to shave the side of hair :( Hair, please faster grow on her, hehe! Dotes her more as the passed! ;)

Oh yea. My purpose here today is actually post this, :

GOOD BYE MARCH, HELLO APRIL! :D

& have a GREAT APRIL FOOLS' DAY GUYS! ;)

super alot of birthday celebration invitation I've received siol.

April, May, June all have already!

Faizah, Kesh, Geri! :D Still RSVP-ing my attendance to them la :O

If only I have such nice figures! It'll be perfect! ;)

HAHA oh well.

I'm done with 1st week of attachment, which was alright, and another 3 weeks to come :( Sighs, THREE BLOODY MORE WEEKS, I'M TIRED ALREADY. Next time THREE MONTHS LEH! :'( Not being paid also, what the _l_!!!!

It was really tiring as because weekend going back to Mac, and I felt like a Zombie.

Screwed my life totally, sighs! Met up with Jenny for dinner on Friday night at S11 over at Jubilee there, great catch up with her too and end my day with my little girl! ;) Suddenly tell me hungry at 2am then say go downstairs wanna makan, crazy girl, so I cooked Maggie for her instead :) HAHA! She's like my little sister lohhhh, looking after her and all the etc ... :D

MONDAY BLUES TODAY!

Because I'm fucking tired la, counting down to another 14more days :(

I WANNA QUIT SCHOOL! :( :( :(

SIGHSSSSS...

I felt MONDAY BLUES TODAY! :(

Because attachment started, and I'm sick of it. Just only the first day, which I'm having 1months you know! Sighs. How how how. 19more days, counting down already laaaa.

Oh yes, and result will be out tomorrow!

Afraid if I would not do well. Another sighs. God, I hope and pray hard for good result please! Not good but at least I clear this semester module? D: Really hope for the best!

April is approaching in another 10 days, really fast eh?

Want everything to end very soon...

I miss little baby! :(

:'(

I'm tired of saying that I'm fine when I'm not :'(